jsuisiciencore

im back.  or at least for now.   in a sudden turn of events i have gained back my motivation, almost completely out of nowhere and all at once.  weird, i'm aware, but now that i'm feeling it, i'm going to write about it. i don't know how often, or if this is just a one time thing before i lose my motivation in the next hour, but for now i'm excited to be writing again.

i have not written in ages, one of my last posts was from when i was still in france, which was about a year ago. crazy, i know. 

so i'm taking this course at school called writer's craft, and we have a blog for that too.  a lot of my creative stuff will be up there, and i just found it its closed to public eye. hrm.. anyways, ill post what i write there on here too.  some of it will be random as its based on assignments.  but i'll have other random things and rants and whatnot on here too.
so for now, adieu.

breathing the grey in an un-fairytale ending

i don't know where my motivation went.. and i don't know why i stopped blogging.

maybe it dissipated when my laptop crashed and burned. emphasis on the crashed, add in the lack of it being fixed.

i look at my dashboard and i see a multitude of half finished blog posts.. maybe one day ill get around to actually finishing them.

its sad really.. seeing my uncompleted thoughts. to think of what they could've been.

for now, its just me and a bright, cloudy night sky.

perhaps ill see you sooner than my lack of will for writing seems to let on..

Seven

I have a single week left in France.  Surreal.  I'll blog at a later date, probably when I'm back in Canada, to write of everything i've learned, seen, felt, etc.   Ciao.

tremors lead to earthquakes.

i don't know what went wrong.. things have changed here.
But that's besides the point.

I have not written in a very, very long time.  An abundance of ideas with no motivation amounts to nothing.

So.  I'm still in France.

This experience has really opened my eyes to the world around me and made me aware of a lot things about myself and the ones around me.  I don't want to get all philosophical.. or at least not until I'm home so I can give a proper reflection on everything.  I want it to be a bit of a surprise.

But yah.  I've definitely .. changed.  For the better mind you. I've been given the chance of a lifetime and I've taken it to heart.  I have thought a lot about who i am, who i want to be, where i want to go and all that fun stuff.  I have opened up to those around me, and more importantly, to myself. I've gained a true confidence that I'm proud of.

Again, I don't want to spoil it, but rather let it simmer and savour it for a post later on.

So with that, I think I'm ready to come home.  I've accomplished everything I was looking to accomplish, and i've found the parts of me I was searching for.  Not that i want to go just yet, i'm just ready.

Well. Certain events have shifted atmospheres and my mind involuntarily.. so I don't know where everything is at right now.  But yah.  Things will work out.. they always do..